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the Obsession Chronicles

"We each have only a limited amount of time here. We have to do more with it -- pay attention, explore, be open to all of life. Because we have only one chance, we have to make life seem longer than it really is."

posted 3 June 2004

thanking Viggo


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grass 12: on the trail in the MacDonald Forest, Corvallis -- May 2004: photo by Sienna
ah, yes... i hope you're not sick of this obsession because i sure ain't! Viggo Mortensen is my hero, my mentor, my dream guide, my favorite crush & my most present inspiration * a couple of years ago i bought one of his books & i was so impressed, intrigues, inspired, touched, moved by what i found there that i've bought every book i could get my hands on since * back when i was resisting the obsession i didn't buy one book (45301) & 2 cds (The Other Parade & One Less Thing to Worry About) which have since gone out of print & are only available occasionally on eBay for outrageous prices... yes, my "voice" is dripping with regret & you can bet i will not miss another one *
hours spent looking through all those books wore off on me from the very beginning * the day i got the first one, Recent Forgeries, i wrote the first poem i had written in many years, my first thank you, Viggo * this past winter i was out walking with Pippin, taking pictures along the way as always, when suddenly i saw a picture where i'd never seen one before * i thought to myself: Viggo would take that picture * not that he would like it, or i would like to show it to him, but that he would take it -- while i'd never have seen it * i know i sound silly (i am silly, you know that) but it was an eerie feeling, as if he had tapped me on the shoulder & asked me to take the picture for him * like he'd opened a door where i'd only seen a wall * i knew it was from the books, especially Mo Te Upoko-o-te-ika/For Wellington, in which his eye for the details of nature thrills me *
thank you, Viggo: a new website by Sienna Moonfire Designs
i'm repeating myself, though in slightly different words * i wanted to express my gratitude for the inspiration i have received from Viggo's work & when i got an email from another woman who said she wanted to do the same thing i thought of a lovely little book i got in Nicaragua, a gathering of words of thanks for Julio Cortázar * i thought: wouldn't it be beautiful to do that for Viggo? * who cares if he sees it? just to do it would be a pleasure -- just like that poem was for me as much as for him * so, if you haven't figured it out already, that's what i did & here it is: ThankYouViggo.com, the new playground over which i'm obsessing these days (which is why i've neglected this page for 2 weeks!) *
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making lists: about this page

last updated 10 January 2004
the stunning movie The Pillow Book is the inspiration for this ever-evolving page of lists * there are lots of links mixed in on my lists -- if i could find a good link on any item, i included it * some links go straight to Amazon.com or the IMDb but watch that bottom status bar because there are some other great links hidden in there * if you're interested in a little history, follow the story behind this page on the one that came before it, otherwise, click on for more rambling words and lists of beloved things -- is that an oxymoron?
the lists below may look the same but they change every time i update the page * not all of them every time, but all of them over time * as it's a new year i'm going to give them another thorough going over, keep my mind moving on to new obsessions, even though i don't completely let go of the old ones *
the 2 spots at top i'll keep -- they're always changing & besides, they please me (i'm the only audience for these pages for all i know, so why not?) * my horrorscope: i'm a woo-woo type, part pagan, so why not revel in it? & the hotties in the movies: what's life without some tasty crushes? i try to keep the list short, but when i really fall for somebody it's usually because of a generous genuine nature & then i never want to take him&her off my list * like Viggo, like Salma * i saw the elvin Cate Blanchett on Inside the Actors Studio & wow... she said "It has to be a generous act" about really giving herself to a performance emotionally, going all out as she does * the generosity of creative expression is one of my favorite concepts, the one i've begun the last 2 years with (see Viggo for last year, & Brezsny for this) * see, it's all connected *

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my horrorscope this week
(for the week of 3 June 2004):
There is a Native American nation that white people call the Winnebago. The tribe's members refer to themselves, however, as the Hotcâgara. That's your first metaphorical clue for the week, Aries. You should firmly correct anyone who misnames or misidentifies you. Here's another tip, courtesy of the Hotcâgara. In their origin myth, the great god Earthmaker wakes up to realize he is the only being in the universe. In his abysmal loneliness, he weeps. His tears become the oceans and rivers and lakes of our world. I suspect that the tears you cry in the coming week will also, like Earthmaker's, be profoundly creative.

angel cards i just drew:
responsibility    openness    ______

how am i doing?
i haven't cried a tear this week but i certainly do feel creative, even profoundly creative * i feel like my fingers can't keep up with my mind & my mind can't keep up with my inspiration -- i love that feeling * i wonder if i've been neglecting my responsibilities a bit but at the same time i feel the responsibility to be open to the gifts that are seething around, within & through me * i do love that blank card -- i never want to fill in a word, just to leave it blank (how lovely to get it & also openness!) *
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my favorite onscreen crushes:
the boys
Viggo *
Billy Boyd *
Philip Seymour Hoffman *
Ryan Gosling *
Eric Bana *
George Clooney (i hate to love him, but i'm big enough to admit i do) *
& the girls

the best movies i've seen lately:

movies i want to see next:
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what music is playing:

what i am reading:
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light 29: the sun going down behind the trees on the Willamette River, Corvallis -- June 2004: photo by Sienna
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birds at my feeders this week:
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questionnaire:
my answers to those questions he always asks on Inside the Actors Studio are as follows (today):
my most favorite word is inspire *
my least favorite word is neglect *
what turns me on is not having enough hours in a day *
what turns me off is not having enough hours in a day *
a sound i love is splashing *
a sound i hate is glass breaking *
my favorite curse word is damn straight *
a profession other than my own that i would love to try is tarot reader *
a profession i would hate to try is apartment manager *
if i end up at the pearly gates & there is a god to greet me, i would want her to say, "you can relax now, you're among friends" *
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ways that Pippin is like the hobbit:
* he's always concerned about second breakfast
* he has big hairy feet
* he seldom wears shoes (he has been known to wear a slipper on his nose)
* he's a total fool (but an honest fool)
* he's intensely loyal but also makes new friends everywhere he goes
* he likes to go walking, but home is best of all
* his speech is very rustic
* he squeals like a girl (just like Billy/Pippin did in FotR when the firecracker went off in his hand)

ways that Pippin is not like the hobbit:
* he doesn't really smoke too much, Pip
* he doesn't like beer either
* he lives for swimming (after food of course)
* he'll never be able to have 13 babies (in fairness, that was Sam -- as far as i've read Pippin only had the one he named Faramir)
* he's missing his Merry
* he makes a lot of noise walking through the woods
* he doesn't sing (well, not exactly)

water 22: self-portrait on the Willamette River -- June 2004: photo by Sienna
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leaf 6: a leaf that caught my eye on the trail in the MacDonald Forest, Corvallis -- May 2004: photo by Sienna
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my favorite dream this month:
i was going up stairs to my room (it wasn't my real life house -- i haven't had stairs since 2 addresses ago * it also had 3 toilets in the bathroom! so close together it would have been hard to share & one of them only had half a seat on it, but it was such a wide half a seat that i checked to see if it was meant to be that way or if it was broken -- broken * now what the heck d'ya s'pose the dream books would say about that?!) & there was a very sweet, timid but insistent red-headed boy following me * i don't know if i'd been flirting with him or he'd been flirting with me but i was going to leave it alone, maybe because he was young * he didn't want me to leave but he was afraid to follow me all the way into my room * something made me change my mind & i came back down to where he sat on the steps * his eyelashes, glowing orangey-red gorgeous, were so long that he brushed them back behind his ears so he could see me better * as if i hadn't noticed before i exclaimed "your eyelashes are longer than your hair!" * it was enticing, the eyelashes, the hair, seductive * i wanted to touch it * he looked up at me & his eyes were so soft & young but so present, not really innocent but full of desire -- not lust, which is purely physical, but desire, which is somehow more than that * so i sat down on the same step & i kissed him & his lips were so softly delicious i could still feel them when i woke up *

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